Satyam Holistic Wellness

We are living in times where things are unpredictable and changes are happening quickly.  I can certainly attest to this in my own life.  I recently had eye surgery to have a small drainage stent implanted in my left eye.  Due to a genetic eye condition, the drainage channels that carry fluid out of the eye do not work properly.  As a result, I was diagnosed with glaucoma at age 14 and have taken eye drops to control the eye pressure ever since.  

Over the years, the pressure was not able to be regulated by the medication and I agreed to have the surgery to implant the drainage tube.  I had some trepidation, as I had undergone a pretty intense eye surgery in 2015 with some complications and a long recovery.

The surgery went well and the healing was going smoothly, with minimal discomforts.  About 5 days later, I began noticing a black blob in my visual field.  I mentioned this at a follow-up visit and it was discovered that my retina had partially detached from the back of the eye due to a build-up of fluid that had gotten in behind it.

This is considered an eye emergency, because when the retina detaches, you lose your vision and it cannot be restored.  I was immediately sent to a specialist and was scheduled for surgery the next day.

It was so unexpected and I was in shock on all levels.  The surgery was successful, and a small gas bubble was inserted into the eye to push the retina back into place.  A tiny laser was used like a glue gun, burning the edge of the retina to adhere to the eye.  

All this was happening and in the back of my mind, there was something else burning.  “Will I be able to travel as planned to Colombia on February 14th for the spiritual pilgrimage with my teacher and community?”  This is yet to be determined, and will reveal itself at a follow-up appointment early next week.

I could speculate that my circumstances are calling me to a new perception.  It truly does feel like the shedding of an old skin, an old way of seeing my reality.  And while this may be true, I also have come to understand from years of seeking and guiding others, that the understanding of why things happen, the meaning, is not something to be sought after.  Revelations come in their own time.  They do not come from the head caught in self-analysis or in dissecting the details of our circumstances.  True aha moments arise from a place of inner silence like a full-bodied knowing of “this is truth.”  

The excitement of my heart yearns to go to Colombia and I also know that whatever happens is my higher self’s perfect design and guidance.  We may not always get what we want, we always get what we need and what is in the best interest for us to learn and grow from.

So as we move through these uncertain times, trust that you are in a divine co-creatorship with your higher self.  Even the most challenging of your creations has been designed by you with the most loving intentions for your evolution.  This is how you see your life in the positive.  You may not understand the “why” right away, yet you learn to trust that your creation and creator are the same loving source that provides you with exactly what you need in every given moment to be more you!

The day after surgery, my dear friend brought me an “eye bread” from one of the best bakeries in Gatineua, Quebec. It was both heartwarming and delicious!

P.S. As it is difficult to spend time looking at screens these days, I typed this with my eyes closed and ran it through grammar and spell check.  There is always a way…